Christmas is in the air and in my spleen.

"In short, if I want to eat the chocolate, I must keep writing. What an awful, awful choice! On the one side:I renounce the chocolate, stay healthy and trim, and put an end to this reckless tale-telling. On the other side: I climb the ladder, feast on chocolate, and then, full of sugar and guilt, I continue my story, knowing I'm possibly sentencing you to a fate worse than death. Actually, put like that, the choice is pretty easy. I'll be right back."

Yesterday was awesomeness. Justin came to get me at 8. We went to breakfast and then to my house for dessert. Got up to play Wii at 2:00. Dad unexpectedly came home at about 2:20. So whew to that one. Ceridwen came home at 3. Justin left at 3:30. Me and Dad went to give blood at 3:35. Got home at 4:30. Lounged on the couch for the rest of the day. Ate dinner at like, 9. went to bed at 10.

Today is not so awesome. Found my bag of stuff for my t-shirt (which is good) but Vitti told me I couldn't use my own glue to glue stuff on. What the hell was that?!?! Wanted to wear Jacquie's hat for christmas at school but omg she took it home last night. Wanted to wear Santa Head-Bobble-Headband-Thing instead of hat but omg Eirlys left it at school. Opted out of the "Christmas Variety Show" so I am stuck here with nothing to do for 2 hours. Justin e-mailed me so I thought he was home and could come and get me. Called his cell and he's in Orangeville with his mum.

On the bright side, I painted my nails this morning during first.

My mouth is super-uber dry. Woke up and it was like that. I take a drink and a minute later I'm dying. Maybe it's because of my blood?? Or lack of it?? Could that happen??

I want M&Ms. I'll have to wait until Dovigo gets back otherwise he'll lock the door behind him. But he's going to be away for the whole show, I think. Crap.

Got invited to Justin's family dinner on the 27th. So that's pretty good.

Hopefully he'll be able to come over tonight.

Don't really want school tomorrow but I might as well.

Wrote my carrot article for the Howler. I was doing so well with the word count. Until the last paragraph, that is. Went almost 200 over by accident. Had to cut out some golden bits but whatever. I'm pissed enough at Kyle as it is.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Back on track?? Maybe??

"Many cacao beans have given their lives to make that chocolate."

So hopefully I'll get this blogging thing back on track.

Not tomorrow though. Tomorrow Justin is "working" so he'll be at school at like, 8 to get me. YAY!!!

Total crap news. Went to work on my t-shirt this morning and someone had stolen my stuff!! Not the actual t-shirt but the huge bag of stuff I had brought in to put on it. Not to mention the super expensive glue I brought in to affix the stuff. Omg I'm going to kill someone. I'd better find it soon or I am seriously going to crack.

Cracked my wrist this morning. Hurts like fuck.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Thowwy.

"The rest of my story is seventy years long, but it is really very short."

Ok so I'm sorry. I tried to make a systemt hat would keep me blogging but apparently it has failed me. 12 Days since I blogged!!! Crap.

Last week was . . . . interesting. Monday I was in school. Tuesday Justin and I took a day to jsut hang out. Wednesday was a snow day. Thursday Justin and I took a day off and went to Vaughn Mills. Friday was a snow day.

Saturday was our Christmas party. Justin came and it was awesomeness. Never seen my cousin drunk before . . . .

Wanting school to be over.

Wanting sleep.

Wanting Christmas.

Wanting Justin.

Wanting to sleep in.

Wanting a job.

Wanting this week to be over.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Blissful pain??

"After all, not all novelists are power-hungry madmen -- some are power hungry mad women."

So yesterday was awesome. It snowed majorly (compared to what we've had so far) And there was like, an inch and a half on the ground when I got up. I made a snowman at 6:30 am. I named him Marcus. However, at about 12 when it got sunny he started to melt. But he melted in the most obscure way. He faceplanted forwards into the ground. He actually looked pretty funny because his arms were stuck straight out (duh, they were sticks) and yeah. He's not fully melted, but he has shrunk a bit.

To be honest, I didn't think that me and Justin would end up getting a full day to be together. Because of his time schedule and mine and the fact that he's the only one with a vehicle and we have to wait for a house to be empty. But we made it work!! We were at my house at 9:30!! It was awesome. And then we went to Subway and then he went home at about 2:30. But get this, because I "hadn't seen him all day" he got to come over later on!! I went to his house for dinner and then he came over and we hung out. It was soooooo fun. I need another day like that.

On the downside, my muscles are a bit stiff today.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Makeupless

"Never trust a magician. We use words only to divert your attention. Look at my pretty scarf, we say, so you do not see our sleight of hand when the rabbit disappears."

Wow. I am makeupless. Today is my first day spending a whole day at school without makeup. Since grade 7. Profound, isn't it?? I think so.

Tomorrow is me and Justin's day together. He's coming to get me at 9. At 9!!! So happy.

I have a headache. I'm pretty sure it's this crappy headband thats digging into my skull behind my ears. You know the pressure point behind your ears that if you push into it, you'll like, die?? Yeah. My headband is trying to murder me. Great.

Tonight is Bring a Friend night at brownies. Hoping to get it over and done with.

Hungry. I actually brought a sandwich for lunch today. I ate half of it during first.

I put together a christmas tree for Lloyd. You know those cool ones with the lights built in?? Yeah, he got one for the music room and so I got to put it together. And then I'm going to decorate it maybe tomorrow or Wednesday.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Gummy Gummy Gum.

"Thank you so much for your time," added Dr. L in his recognizably unrecognizable accent."

Kyle gave me gum. It is yummy. But getting a bit oldish.

Going to Humber tomorrow.

Made a blood appointment on the 16th. YAY!!!

Did a little on my shirt. Not so thrilled with it like Vitti is.

Worked for like, an hour and a half on my cubist. Working on it next period too. Kill me. LOVE the scissors though. SO good.

Wanted to buy an alarm clock tonight but apparently I'm not allowed. Weird parents.

Want my second tattoo. I wantitwantitwantit!!!

But I digress.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Alright . . . .

So I apologize. Apparently I've gotten a bit behind. Sorry :)

"Grownups can be useful at times - money and car rides come to mind. But they also have a habit of getting in the way when you want to do something they don't approve of."

Justin and I had a fun day yesterday. He picked me up from school after second and we went to his house and just hung out. I brought Chef Boy-ar-dee and it was yummy and wonderful. Then we had a nap and watched tv and it was awesome.

I had to be home at 3 to plan Brownies with Alex and he had to be home to pick up his sister from the bus so that kind of sucked but he came over when his mum got home from work. We did my applications fro University and College. Mum was quite annoying but she paid so yay. My grades didn't show up on the college site so I was kindof freaking out about that But I talked to the Guidance people today and they said that's just because they only sent the grades to the colleges like, sunday. So that's ok. At least until Fridy. Then I'm allowed to freak.

Speaking of freaking, I only have, like, NO TIME LEFT for my tshirt. Super freaking about that. And my stupid cubist thing too. Damn Vitti and her confusing and difficult ideas.

Justin's dad is away on a retreat for the rest of the week and his mom is totally ok with us seeing eachother everyday this week. Which is TOTALLY inconvenient because of what week of the month it is, if you get my meaning. Man, why?? But we're planning to have a full day sometime soon. Like, a FULL DAY. So that should be good.

On a bright note, I seem to have beaten some sense into this stupid keyboard. It's hardly acting up at all.

Dress down day for this month was changed to Monday. What the hell is with that??

Sent in the badgework to the company. Hopefully they get back to me soon about that.

Brownies are going to the Science Center!!! We've convinced enough people that it's a good idea so it's happening. We just need province to ok it but that shouldn't be a big deal, it will just take a while. That reminds me, I have to make a newsletter about that for parents.

I have to pee.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Sparish

"At first, Cass thought her mother was going to tell her something terrible, like that she was getting married or dying of some rare fungus."

So Dovigs is apparently away today. So,


Spare first.

Spare second.

Spare third.

Art.


Justin is coming to pick me up though, so that's ok.

Totally forgot I'm babysitting tonight. Bum.

Eating Cheerios from my bag. Yum.

Made the Jailbreak badge for me and Alex. Just waiting for her to confirm it. Taken me way too long to get this done. Hope the people don't forget about me.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Humbering

"CHAPTER 8: The title of this chapter is so ALARMING I've decided not to include it"

Tired. I seem to be super tired lately. Maybe I'll get some sleep tomorrow night. Justin is at Trevors' for another poker night so perhaps I'll be able to sleep. Actually, scratch that. I'll just be worried about him and I won't be able to sleep at all. The last time he went he got sick from a combination of eating too much and drinking too much and other stuff like that.

Gonna go look at the Humber website to see if I need a portfolio for them. Probably not, but I need two letters of recommendation, I know that. I'll ask Bertucci and . . . . hmmm. Gotta figure out the other person. Maybe Jacquie. Or Dovigs. If I see Bertucci I'll ask him today. But I don't think I will see him. Meh.

Gotta take a picture of a road for my title page. I'd rather have a picture that has leaves on the trees but unfortunately it's way too late for that. Pity.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Home. Alone. Grrrr.

"Cass waited as Max-Ernest shut himself into the bathroom. She tried not to listen, but every sound in the magician's house was magnified. Besides, boys always peed loudly. Finally, she heard the toilet flush. Then she heard two screams."

Arg. Justin is home alone today and I have to be at school. Grrrr.

Stiffened my tshirt for Graphic Design yesterday. IhopeIhopeIhope it's dry enough for me to work on it.

Lloyd has cookies for at band. Yay cookies!!!

Oh I forgot to tell you; on Monday I got a phone call from Future Shop. Apparently the company wasn't doing as well as they thought they would so all seasonal staff got the boot. Shitty eh?? Now I have to find another job. Yay.

Crap I have to phone brownie parents . . . .

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return

-------

"As I'm sure you know from experience, lying is an important skill to have."

Soooo tired. I'm pretty sure I fell asleep walking to the bus this morning.

Hopefully Justin will come over as soon as I get home. Or else he might get to my house and I'll be asleep.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Bum.

"Hi, you're Cassandra. I'm Max-Ernest. We don't know each other. But I know who you are and you probably know who I am. Well, you definitely do now. But I mean you probably knew before because everybody here knows who everybody is. Even if they've never met. Isn't that weird how you can know somebody and not know somebody at the same time? How 'bout that?"

Ok, so my blogging plan failed for this weekend. But I'm back on track. Just don't count on there being blogs on the weekend :)

So Justin came on Friday to pick up his stuff and to save me from Hell. Or do I mean Hall?? Anyways, we went for food and then to my house. However, my dad was there. Which sucked ass. So we went to Canadian Tire to pick up some stuff for Justin's dad and then hung around there for ages.

The Howler came out today. I'm actually really pissed off about it. I know Kyle's been working his butt off but seriously this makes me mad. He cut out full paragraphs of my article in order to make it fit. He originally told me I was getting as many words as I needed and then cut out about 250 words to fit me in a small cube area. And he took out my picture too. He has so many articles and so much information in them but he's trying to fit them all on 6 pages. And the end result is really crappy. And he doesn't understand why I'm so mad.

Football thing for Dovigo is finally done. But now I'm probably going to be in charge of putting all the pictures in and editing them and stuff. Whatever, at least I'll have something to do.

Fixed up the text for the Title Page. Monica gave me like, half a page of crap. But I fixed it up to about 5 sentances, which is what I wanted in the first place.

Justin took the cap off his truck so now it looks a lot better. So much cuter. I'm allowed to call it cute now because he did yesterday :)

Yesterday was our 1 year and 1 month. Totally gapped about it. Pity.

Justin told me we'll go to see a movie sometime soon. I hope we do. I want to get a picture by the Couples Retreat sign before it stops being shown. At least, I hope it's still being shown . . . .

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Lier

"As the lump of shriveled pink flesh that would become Max-Ernest lay in the hospital incubator. like a small chicken (or a rabbit?) roasting in a glass oven, his parents argued about what to call him."

So, apparently, I've lied. I WAS able to blog today. But that's only because my dad got the time we were supposed to be there wrong. He tells me this after I've run around to get everything done. "Oh yeah, you've got another hour and a half until we leave." Grrrrr. But meh.

Got to change my chiropractor appointment for sometime else. Can't be today. can't be tomorrow. Don't know if I want to wake up early enough for it to be on Saturday . . . . I'll get mum to do it.

Justin came over last night and we played the new Raving Rabbids game for the Wii. OMG too funny. I'm not even going to spoil it by describing it. Too funny.

Mum wants me to clean up. Bleaugh. I don't want to.

Hopefully I'll see Justin on Saturday when he gets home from Humber. He's going for the openy house thing.

I want sleep. I've been so sleep deprived these past few weeks . . . .

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that hs ebade me return

Lest we Forget

"I'm sorry I couldn't let you read Chapter One. That was where you would have learned the names of the characters in this story. You also would have learned where it takes place. And when. You would have learned all the things you usually learn at the beginning of a book. Unfortunately, I can't tell you any of those things. Yes, this is a story about a secret. But it's also a secret story. I shouldn't even be telling you that I shouldn't be telling you the story. That's how much of a secret it is."

So, it's Remembrance Day. News Flash. Meh. Ceremony thing at school went ok. At least the day is half over already. No pretty in Pink incident this year though. Pity.

Justin got his truck yesterday!!! We went for a drive last night. It was pretty cool and I am now learning how to drive Standard. OMG so confusing. All I really got from our lesson last night was that if you gear up the RPMs go down and if you gear down they go up. And also that you want to stay between 1 and a half and 2 and a half when you're driving, and that it's good to start at around 2. Whew.

Going to Ryerson tomorrow so there probably won't be a blog until late late at night. Mostly because i get home from Ryerson at about 4:30 and then I have a half an hour to be at work. I have no idea what I'm doing there or what I even have to do as soon as I walk in the door. I'll probably go to Customer Service and ask and then I'll look like an idiot. YAY!!!

Hmmm. I've just remembered something that I don't think I've mentioned yet. Mum hit Justin's car sometime last week. Not anything serious, just a dent and a plasticy bit fell off. But it was a good sized dent and now she has to pay this guy $300 because technically Justin didn't own the car anymore when she hit it. This guy did. So yeah.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Day 2 of the Q.O.T.D. (So far, so good)

"It's funny the way secrets work. If you don't know about a secret, it doesn't bother you. You go about your business without a care in the world. La La La, you sing. Everything's fine and dandy. (Maybe you don't actually sing "la la la", but you know what I mean.)"

So I've been doing this stupid football thing for Dovigo and he and a few other people just totally smashed it. Poo. And I spent two days editing it. Grrrr.

On the bright side, Justin is for sure getting his truck today. Actually, he probably has it now. But I get to see it when he comes over tonight.

Did I mention I went to Queens last Saturday?? Perhaps. Well, in case I didn't, HEY!!! Guess what?? I went to Queens last Saturday!! Yay :D

Tired. Tired. Tired. I dunno why I can't seem to get any sleep lately.

Got a new game for the Wii and we got the new Wii Fit Plus. I haven't played it yet but Ceridwen and Eirlys have and they say it's pretty cool.

Bored. I might call Justin during my lunch but he might be working on the siding of his house. I hope not because I'm quite bored. And my lunch is going to be just as boring as it always is. Maybe Lloyd will have logged into his computer so I can check my Facebook.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return

A.M.A.Q.O.T.D

Almost a month!! This is terrible!! I really need to get on top of this blogging thing.

Good news though, I have come with a fantastical idea. (Hey, the spell checker says that fantastical is spelt right. Is it actually a word?? I'll check . . . . OMG IT IS!!!! Cool.) This fantastical idea will help me (hopefully) get back on track here. However, it involves a bit of explanation. For those of you who don't know, I am a Quote Whore. Every time I read a book I mark off little phrases or groupings of words that I like. And I do mean EVERY TIME I read a book. If there's a good book in my hands you will see tons of tiny bits of paper in between the pages. I then copy all the quotes down into little books. I started this in the summer of grade 10 and I now have three of these little books. So, I formally announce AMBROSIA'S MOST AMAZING QUOTE OF THE DAY!!! Or A.M.A.Q.O.T.D for short. I tried to make something witty, but it didn't work out. :)

The quotes will be at the top of the blog and then my thingie will continue underneath. Today, however, it will be a bit different. I will also link the title of the book when it begins so if you choose to find out more about it you can do so.

The first book is "The name of this book is secret" by Pseudonymous Bosch. Yes, that's actually the title and yes, that's the author.

"Generally speaking, books don't cause much harm. Except when you read them, that is. Then they cause all kinds of problems."

Justin should be getting his truck tomorrow. Possibly tonight, but most likely tomorrow. YAY!!!! His truck is really cool. And it's actually quite cute. For me, anyways. The actual truck bed is longer than most trucks, so it gives the truck an extended view, but it's so cool because of that.

Last Saturday I sprained a muscle in my neck and so I've been going to the chiropractor for that. And because of my neck, I've discovered a fantastical new chiropractor. I woke up not being able to move my head Halloween morning and, it being a Saturday, no one was open. We looked in phone book after phone book and finally found this place. "Adjust your life Chiropractor" Hilarious right?? :) They had extended hours and therefore open on Saturdays which was totally awesome. She's cool and everybody there is so nice. There's one chiropractor and then her mother works as the secretary and then another girl comes in twice a week to take over being secretary. There's another lady that is superly skilled in like, massaging and prenatal stuff and I don't even know what but she comes in twice a week too.

Tonight is enrollment at Brownies. A bit nervous but I hope it goes off without a hitch. Some of these Brownie parents are really un-considerate?? Is that a word?? Hmmm. Also, Alex and myself are being enrolled as Brownie leaders too tonight so . . . . yay??

Vitti hasn't been in class all last week and she's not in today either, grrrr.

Lost my USB key all last week so I couldn't do ANYTHING so that was TOTAL crap. Becasue everything is on there so I was genuinely scared. But wonderful Dovigs found it on Friday so I told him I would love him forever. He just laughed. Horrible man.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Really Really

Really Really bored

Really Really depressed

Really Really lonely

Really Really rushed

Really Really pushed

Really Really hoping

Really Really loving

Really Really hating

Really Really waiting

WHMIS 101

So last night I had my first night at Future Shop. And I got paid for it!!!! Yay. We filled out paperwork and went on a tour and watched a WHMIS video. My first ever WHMIS video. YAY!!! I'm going back next week for our cash training because every staff is trained to do cash. And then we get split up into whatever sections we're working in. So I'll discover where I am then. However, because I have this training next week too, I can't go to the awards ceremony. Meh. I wasn't getting an award anyways. I never get any awards.

OM and Abousfian Abdelrazik was coming to our school today to talk and I was SO EXCITED!!!! And then me and Kyle got there and discovered that he had cancelled because he wasn't feeling well. And because he's doing this huge tour going everywhere and talking he probably won't be able to re-schedule. Which really sucks because I really wanted to meet him. It would have been so . . . . nice. Pity.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

aNGRY aT tHE kEYBOARD.

In yearbook right now. Dovigo isn't here and so I have nothing to do. Also, the Caps lock key is really pissing me off on this keyboard because it decides when it want's to go on and off on it's own. sO THEN i END UP WITH SENTANCES THAT LOOK LIKE THIS until I realize and go back and re-type it all. Annoying. Perhaps I'll trade it with someone when they've left.

I really have nothing to do to entertain myself. Im listening to music I have on my key, thank god for that. But other than that . . . . bored.

Tonight I have my training for Future Shop. Plus, I find out which section I'm in.

This morning was super crappy. HUGE fight in the morning which was, of course, my fault. And my parents both did the thingie that really upsets me. When they point out all of my bad qualities and then tell me either that's why I was fired before, or that's why I'm going to be fired this time. I don't know exactly why it upsets me so much, but it does. I considered calling Justin during one of my spares, but I decided against it. Because I don't want to interrupt him at work. And if he could go his crappy day yesterday without needing to call me, I can get through today. As long as I see him tonight. Which had better happen.

Last night, I worked for like, 4 hours on Brownie stuff, just organizing it and making stuff work so we don't have to rush to do it later.

And Justin wanted to come over and I wanted him to come over too but daddy said that he had "too much work to do" so he couldn't. Which sucks because he was almost at my house by the time daddy said no. So he literally had to drive up my street, turn around and go home while I was still on the phone with him. And both me and Justin had a crap day yesterday. I'm hoping my training doesn't go too late tonight and maybe he'll be able to come and rescue me.

Tonight I have to go grocery shopping too. I need a bunch of stuff for these stupid pies I have to make. I told Justin I would bring a pie to his Thanksgiving on Sunday and the my stupid mother told my grandma that I'd send a pie with them too. And these pies take like, two hours to make one. Plus, they each need 10 apples. omg I'm going to end up killing myself with an apple.

Liv's party is Saturday to Sunday which kindof sucks because we thought it was Friday to Saturday. So we're just going to leave late Saturday night and then go home and then meet up Sunday morning. Pity they won't let me just sleep over at Justin's house. :(

Our camping trip is cancelled now, too. So I dunno what we're doing about that. The site we wanted to go to has already closed their tent areas for the winter. Even though they claim to be an all-season campsite. So they're just accepting RV's and stuff. Stupid site.

It's almost lunch now. Hooray. I get to sit there and read a book while people stare at me and laugh at me. Yippee. Just what I look forward to. Every. Single. Day.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

. . . . with hot sauce.

Wow, almost a month has passed since I blogged. Apologies. I really have no excuse. I've had excessive amounts of time. Guess I'm just really lazy.

Spare is going immensly boringly. Some sub teacher kicked me out of the music room today. Noob.

Independant Lit is ok. We've just picked out our second book. The book of Negroes. Our first was One flew over the cuckoos nest. It's ok but I can't get into it properly. We went to Stratford to see The Importance of Being Earnest last week. It was ok, kind of funny but too predictable for my liking.

Yearbook is going ok-ish. I can't be editor because I'm in grade 13 which sucks balls. Monkey balls. With hot sauce. So I'm on layout instead. We chose our theme last week which is good cause last year it took them three months. So now I have to come up with a few templates and layouts by Thursday. AUUGGHHH!!!!

Graphic Design is ok, we're doing the Illustrator project again so it's getting a tad repetitive. But I knew that before. On the bright side, my face is turning out to be 1,000 % better than last years already.

Been sending out resumes like crazy. There must be 50 or so around Orangeville. I'm not even exaggerating. But omg great news. Last week Future shop was having open interviews. Show up with your resume, you get an interview. So, long story short, three hours and two interviews later I got HIRED!!!!!!! I'm going to a meeting thing on Thursday (which means I can't go to the opera with Lloyd :C) to see them. I think it might only be Holiday work but whatever. At least I have a job.

Andress hasn't said anything to me about teaching his daughter for like, 4 weeks and then randomly his wife made some passing remark about her daughter doesn't want to do it anymore. Too much practising involved. I was like wow would've been nice to know thanks for that.

Andrew's birthday party was Sunday. It was cool I got to see Justin's family again. I like them.

Me and Justin have been trying to make Thanksgiving work between our families. He came to Easter with my family and we both think it's my turn. Dad says it's fine with him which is good cause it's his mother. So we just have to convince MY mother of that.

Also, me and Justin have been trying to work out a camping trip between me and him and hopefully this time it'll work. More news later.

Me and Justin's one year anniversary is on the 15th!!!!! :D

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Another year, another turd added to the sidewalk that is my life.

So, I know that I've not written for aeons and so I apologize profusely. Really, I am sorry to you, the ultimate supreme cyber-being that takes care of my soul.

There has been quite a lot going on in my summer and yet when I think back it really doesn't seem like much. For the first few weeks of summer I had a routine. Wake-up, feel sorry for myself for not having a job. Dread going back to school. Hang out with Justin every couple of days. Stuff like that. And then I went to camp for a week. However, while I was there I was offered a job as a counsellor at a completely different camp for the rest of the summer. Paying position, Hell yes I took it. So I spent one day of un-packing and re-packingness at home (and a last day of Justin) and then I was trundled off to Camp Wyoka. Camp was fantastic, met loads of new people who I will love forever.

I left camp a few days early to fly by myself to England. Did I tell you about that?? I don't remember. My auntie gave me a three week trip to England for my birthday. It was fun, got to hang around there. We went into London for a few days and I was left on my own there for 4 days. Pretty cool. I flew back two days ago. (With quite a lot of help from Justin) My mother was persuaded to let me have a day off before I went to school. So I had a day of Justin. Yay :D

Today was my first day back at school. I can sum it up in one word. Abysmal. Absolutely and utterly abysmal. I can't even write down what I did today. It was just so depressing and upsetting. I got home and told my mother that I couldn't do it. I just couldn't go back. Not even for Yearbook. Not. Even. For. Yearbook. Then she and daddy started screaming at me about how I wasn't being considerate, imagine if we had just moved here, there'll be a lot of situations in life like this, etc. Just what I need. I can't bring myself to go back tomorrow. And I'm only supposed to be there for a half a day! But I'm sure that I will end up being forced to go back. And I'm sure that it will be the same, if not worse than today.

On a slightly happier note, Justin went in for a job interview a few days ago and yesterday when I was with him he got a callback saying that he'd gotten the job!! It's a full-time job working as maintenance for some place. It's like a two minute walk away from school which is kind of funny. Today is his first day and he said he would call me when he got home so we could compare notes.

Have I mentioned how much being away from my friends depresses me?? I don't know if I have here, but I definitely have written it before. Perhaps in an email to Justin. It really depresses me that they get to experience this and I don't. I get to stick around with the grade 12s of this year. Great. The Imbeciles. Lots more angst and such stuff.

Anyways, I've got to go and be pleasant now. Wonder how that's going to go over. I PROMISE I'll write more often. It was just too much I guess.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

hey ok so at the moment im really not all tha concerned with grammar and stuff so pardon me. have you ever seen anybody right before they die?? well i have. driving home yesterday with daddy and justin we saw this accident on the side of the road. the car was smoking. we got out and ran and there were three people out of one car, two had injuries. brooke, jacob and kevin. two others were trapped in the car. tyler and natalie. both were unconsious. justin managed to wake up natalie who was trapped in the drivers seat. tyler was lying down in the backseat with one of his legs sticking out the window. the car was wedged between two trees. justin and daddy kept saying how shocked they were that the car hadnt rolled. and if they had been a foot forwards or two feet backwards natalie would have been crushed by a tree trunk. she was trapped in the front seat for about wo hours. brooke started having sezures. jacob had some head and leg injuries. kevin was physically fine, he was running around a lot. tyler though, he wasnt good. he wasnt consious at all and only barely breathing. ive never seen someone gurgle before. we saw him be resussitated and then he was driven off. i think when tehy lifted him out of the car he stopped breathing. he was purple, getting no circulation to his head. we were told later that he didnt make it.


ive never seen someone die before.

Ending . . . .

la la la

kk so EDGEFEST WAS SOOOOOOOOOO AWESOME!!!!!!!! Can't wait for next years :) There was mud mud mud and mud. My shoes are literally caked with it, you can't see what colour they were :) Moshing and mud. You know what I discovered?? Moshing is quite scary when you are at least a foot and a half shorter than everyone else involved. Quite scary. But there was at least three people who were like "OMG are you ok?? MOVE!!! LET HER OUT!!!!" And they cleared a path and everything for me. So that was sweet of them. And omg there was soooooo much weed at this place I swear I was getting dizzy just from exposure. Justin was soooo funny, screaming out every song he knew and jumping around like an idiot XD But he was cute :) OMG BILLY TALENT WAS BOMB!!!!!!! Sooooo in love with them. Metric was bomb too, they were so funny.

Grad was on Tuesday and it was so cool. When all of the Grads were walking in I was the LAST ONE TO WALK IN!!!!!!!! So cool. My feet were KILLING me yesterday but that's ok. But I kind of had a moment. I think everyone else's moment was at the Big Event when they were like "Wow, I'm never coming back here." But I am, so it didn't hit me. But then on Tuesday when everyone was walking in and I heard the Pomp song, I was just kindof like "Wow. I'm graduating. Wow." It's just kindof mindboggling, you know?? And my grad present from my family also boggled me a bit. They got me a legit diamond ring with 6 diamonds inbetween 3 aquamarine stones cause that's my birthstone. It's so pretty and awesome. And unexpected too.

Andrea's party is TONIGHT!!! It's going to be sooooooo cool. I hope we all go out and dance in the rain because it's supposed to thunderstorm today. So that'll be cool. And later on tonight will be cool too. Tenting with Justin again :)

Then tomorrow I'm leaving for the Goodyear moot so that'll be cool. Hmmm. That reminds me, I've got to finish packing . . . .

And then I'm pretty sure I'm going to Cassandra's party on Wednesday. I'm not sure cause I originally told her I couldn't go but then she changed the day and I'm not 100% sure I told her I could go . . . .

Hmmmm. Can't really think of anything else to say . . . .

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Hurrah

Yes, Hurrah indeed.

So today I had my last exam and it was fantabulous. Loads of celebrating in the halls so that was cool and depressing at the same time.

Grad is on Tuesday and it will prob also be cool and depressing.

OMF EDGEFEST IS TOMORROW!!!!!!! Sooooooo excited!!!!!

Um, what else has been going on?? Oh yeah, fun stuff today. I went home on Justin's bus and then he came over to my house. We def watched CSI for like, two hours. Bleaugh. Me, Justin and Ceridwen went swimming and then trampolining and then swimming again so that was uber fun. So funny watching him get stuck on the slide too XD Hahaha you know pictures with a bunch of people all jumping into a pool holding hands?? We did that and omg it was too funny. Yes. Fun there.

Then we went downstairs and [expletive deleted] while Ceridwen was in the shower. Fun fun fun.

Hmmm. Mum's gone to some teacher party. Hopefully she won't be home until later and then I'm leaving uber early and maybe she won't get up to see me off so I won't actually see her until Sunday. Hopefully. Is that too much to hope for??

Ceridwen's off at a camp in Tobermory. Cool I get the room to myself.

Hmmm that reminds me, I've got to find out what's happening on Saturday night. Sleeping arrangements wise. 'Cause I dunno what's going on there. Hopefully Justin will be allowed to sleep over but I dunno if his parents are going to let him or not. I hope so though.

Andrea's party is on Thursday!!!!!! OMF SOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!

Hmmm. Not much else I guess. If there is I'll let you know.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

Tired . . . . Pretty sure I've already used that as a title though . . . . meh.

Wow. Ok so 13 days ago I blogged. Ew.

This probably wont be a very detailed update, so I'm sorry, but it's currently 5:24 A.M. and I've already been up and doing homework for 3 hours. Wow. It seems so much longer when you type it down and look at it in actual words, you know??

kk so, what's happened?? I don't even know.

Prom was stellar.

I added 5 things to my list-of-things-I've-never-done-before. Everyone crashed at my house and that was pretty cool. Justin wasn't allowed to sleep over but he hung around until about 3. Ben and Alison disappeared into the night together at about one and I didn't see them again until I woke up. Alison was pretty happy about that. Then I went to Justin's house for the day while everyone else went to Wasaga. Justin and Me tried to nap but we invited Sarah to join us so that his parents wouldn't walk by and wonder idly why we were lying in his bed together. It was cool with Sarah but I don't think we ever ended up actually napping. And then we went to Kat's house and set up our tent there. (OMG TENTING WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!) And then the partay began.

I love it when bandies get together and get drunk.

That's all that's being said.

Um. Kk so normal stuff . . . . went to Stoney Creek (or "Hamilton") last weekend. That was ok-ish because Justin was a t a camp that weekend anyways. I made a new friend there. Everytime I saw him the only thing he was wearing (pretty much) was a loin-cloth. I love him <3>

On the way home from that my Daddy and I went to see Up in 3D. I am in love with Kevin because he reminds me of Justin. (Kevin is a 12 foot bird in case you didn't know)

This week is INSANE!!!!!! And not in the good way. I'm pretty sure my arm has ink poisoning from the amount of homework I've been writing on it. Hence me working for 10,800 seconds in the wee hours of the morning. Hmmm. It really doesn't sound like THAT much when you say it in seconds. I used up 0.125 of my day doing MORNING homework. That's not including evening homework.

Ross wants the t-shirt design done A.S.A.P. so I must work on that . . . .

Idle memo to me: Must call Jay and make appointment for tattoo-touching-uping. And hopefully piercings. I must speak with my parents first . . . .

Grammar test in french yesterday. I actually think I passed it . . . .

We made up the exam for english in class yesterday so that'll be cool . . . .

Justin and I are going to see a movie tomorrow. Hopefully Land of the Lost but it's not playing in Orangeville so we're going to have to go to Silver City I think.

Fireworks party is this weekend. Justin thinks he might not be able to come. Fucksocks.

Big event is on Monday. Sooooo not ready to see my picture included with those who are graduating. Seems so wierd to be in my "last year" of highschool.

Music Exam on Tuesday. Must learn solo.

French Exam on Wednesday. Fucksocks.

Religion Exam on Thursday. Bleaugh.

English Exam on Friday. Must go over exam.

Edgefest is on the 20th SOOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!! More about that later, I think. No time to type a whole rant, even thoug I have already been ranting for quite a while as it is . . . .

Grad is on the next Tuesday. Yay. I think.

Andrea's grad party is either the 25th to the 26t or the 26th to the 27th. It's somewhere in there. And OMF it looks promising. More of Prom weekend, more tenting. Yay. Definitely Yay.

From Andrea's me and my hangover go straight to Goodyear Moot and that'll be uber fun.

Then straight to Cass's party on the 30th to the 1st . . . . I must find out if I'm actually going to that because I told her I wasn't able to but then she changed the day . . . .

STILL looking for employment. Bleaugh. Justin helped me fix my resume but I still am on the half-empty side of the spectrum.

Arg.

Tired.

Want Sleep.

Want Justin.

Want . . . . time.

Want choice.

Arg.

Ok so I lied. It was a SEMI-detailed update. But yes. More later. When I am sane . . . . don't hold your breath . . . .

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

oopsie!!

ok so I apologize. I thought I had written last post that I would update before prom, but alas, I was mistaken. I had promised to write before FRIDAY. Which sucks for me because I was totally awake at midnight last night, I could have updated . . . . oh well.

OMF.

ok so It's 2:00 p.m. and Justin is going to be here in an hour to pick me up and then we're going to Amanda's and then when they leave in the limo we're going to Justin's house becuase Sarah wants to see my dress and then it'll be PROM TIME!!!!!!!! (Wow. That was a long run-on sentence . . . . ) OMFOMFOMFOMFOMFOMFOMFOMF soooooooooo excited. Like, seriously.

I haven't seen my mother since Monday and I won't see her 'til tomorrow (technically) even though it'll really only be tonight. That's made my week super and uber swell. Plus, becuase she was gone I got to eat Peanut Butter all week and that was AWESOMENESS!!!!!

kk I'm going to do my hair now but I will update . . . . either Sunday or Monday. Prob Monday . . . . 

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Oh my dear Satan and all who are holy. I apologize with intense vigour that I haven't updated since the 6th!!! So much and yet so little has happened in that huge time span.

Two weekends ago I went on a little adventure with a bunch of people to New Jersey. We slept on a beach in tents and CRAZY winds and mist and such. But it was ok(ish) because there were three piers of roller-coasters and shit RIGHT NEXT TO OUR TENTS!!!!! It was wonderfullness indeed. We left on the Thursday in the wee hours of the morning, and I'm being serious here. We had to LEAVE our house at 4 in the morning. We actually got on the bus at 5 A.M. Which totally sucks bum, but it was worthwhile. Beach Jam was the sickest thing EVAH!!!! Hop in a coach bus off to New Jersey to sleep on a beach with roller-coasters and boy scouts next door. What more could a girl wish for??

Last Friday was WonderGrad and that thing was SO cool!!!! Grads from all over Ontario coming to Wonderland. And it was just us there. It was so awesome. I made a friend there. He's a piercer and he works in Studio One on Queen Street West.I've no clue what his name is, but he's cool. And Justin won me a prize!!! Yay!!! You know those strength test things where you hit the thingie with the mallet and it goes up and you try to hit the bell at the top?? He did that and he got 70 which is awesomeness considering I would have gotten 5. But he won me a prize and omg this is so funny. After Justin finished, this HUGE guy comes up to take his turn. And I don't mean huge as in he was fat or broadly built or anything. I mean huge muscle-wise. So, whatever this guy hits the thingie and he gets 70!!!!! I'm so proud. Of Justin, not of the muscle dude. :D Yeah so we kinda broke away from the group after that cause they wanted to run around and do rides and we were kinda done with them. We planned on just walking around and stuff but we actually ended up going on quite a few more rides. We did the Merry-Go-Round and we were like "WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!" and I'm pretty sure there was one other person on the ride. And we did Tomb Raider cause it looked like a bum ride and we were bored but omg it freaked the shit out of us. We ended up riding it twice more, I think. And we bought popcorn and it was yummy yummy yummy. And then we went to do MineBuster because it is the greatest ride in the world (right before the Italian Job pre-no fire. OMG I forgot to tell you!!! They took the fire out of Italian Job!!! Now there's just the SOUND of fire. But no actual fire. It sucks.) and we really couldn't take our popcorn with us on the ride so we put it in the little cubby thing. One of the girls who checks your seat thing laughed at us. So we get in the car and it was literally JUST US on the ride. And we were sitting right at the front it was so funny. Did you know that the cars go faster when there's less people on them?? Well, they do. So the ride ended and we're like "Omg we have to do that again". So we wait until the ride comes to a complete stop and the bar thingie goes up and we just push it right back down again. The operator people were laughing so hard. It was good fun. And then we're going back to Wonderland in like, 5 days with band. :)

Last Sunday was Taylor's confirmation so we had to drive down to Mississauga (omg I totally spelled that wrong) to see it and she was sooooooo prettyfull. I ate cupcakes and all was well. Except that both the priest AND the deacon had some sort of speech impediment and no one could understand a word of what they were saying. Not going to lie, it was pretty funny at the beginning but then it just got annoying.

So my mother and Eirlys went to Quebec with school and they left yesterday morning so that will be FUNFUNFUNFUNFUN for MEEEEEEE!!!!!! Because I am usually not on the greatest terms with my mother. Or Eirlys for that matter.

OMG GREATEST NEWS EVER!!!!!!!! And I do mean EVER!!!!!!!!!! OMF PROM IS THIS WEEKEND!!!!!! I'm sooooooo excited. 

But sooooooo stressed at the same time. Seriously I am. I've even made a list of the shit I need to do. I never do that unless I'm totally stressed out by the amount of shit I actually have to do. The list is on my kitchen table at the moment, otherwise I would write it all out for you, but as it's not here, I'll have to summarize. Basically, I have to finish ALL my homework by Thursday. And let me tell you, I have A LOT of homework. It's sort of as if my teachers have taken the days that they didn't give me homework for all throughout the semester and tried to make up for it NOW. When exams are in 15 SCHOOL DAYS!!!! Also, I have to MAJORLY clean up my ENTIRE house. By myself. Because after prom, everyone's crashing at my house for the night.  But on Saturday we're possibly going to Wasaga and then we're sleeping over at Kat's. Nothing's final about the day though. I'll keep you posted. But, of course, I get stuck with the house mess and I have to do it ALL BEFORE FRIDAY!!!!!!! And at the moment our house is looking decidedly scruffier than normal. Which doesn't help. I also have to find a way to increase my Religion mark by like a million percent. I was getting a 70 at midterm and now I'm getting a 58 which totally sucks. I know why I'm getting so low a mark though. I didn't come to class for like, almost three weeks in a row. I would come some days or be legitley (hmmmm. Odd word when you see it written down. Legitley. Hmmmm) absent on other days OR I would actually come to class and there would be a supply teacher!!! I'm not even kidding, it happened to me three times in a row. I actually went to class to get an education and there was a fucking supply teacher there. So I'm pretty sure my teacher thought I only showed up BECAUSE there was a supply teacher, but I swear to you, I didn't. So now I have to catch up on some stuff.

But back to prom. So my dress is a strapless and it's black on top and then the black kind of slopes away and underneath it is all white ruffly things. I think I've explained it before, but just in case I haven't, there it is. And Justin got his tux and he explained it to me so sweetly.He got black pants and a black jacket and a black shirt and a black vest and a white bow-tie. He said that he got it so he would compliment me and I would shine. He's explained it more times and with more words but that's basically the gist of it. So sweet. And he's going to be sooooooo cute in it too!!! And he's going with the whole fauxhawk thing which is UBER hot on him. OMG I can't even get over how cute he's going to be!!!!

He's not sleeping over at my house on Friday though, which totally sucks. His parents said either Friday night or Saturday night and he chose Saturday. Which is good because we have plans for Saturday night. They involve a tent. And a sleeping bag. And Justin. And me.

I must away, for my dad will surely be here to pick me up soon. Don't worry. I WILL UPDATE BEFORE FRIDAY. Even if it's Thursday at 11:50 P.M. It'll happen.

I hope the weather holds up for this weekend. It's supposed to rain all of tomorrow and Thursday. Hmmm.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Meh.

OMF kk so apologies that I haven't updated since Justin came back. That was AGES ago!!! I also really have no excuse as to why I haven't updated. There's really nothing epic going on. At all.

KK so I have since been and come back from Boston. It was pretty meh. There were some fun times and some not-so fun times and some awesome times and some creepy weird times. But all-in-all it was ok. I missed Justin like crazy. It was so bad. There were so many things there that reminded me of him!!! And some of them were weird things too. Things that you normally wouldn't associate with a boyfriend. Like there was a sign for a guy named . . . . Something Herring. He was like the Health guy of the region and there were signs up all over the place. THEY reminded me of Justin. Weird, huh?? But yes. We got a bronze in Boston which I think is ass. I'm not going to go into it really cause I don't feel like it.

Today my Grandparents are taking me and my sisters to Stratford to see West Side Story. They're like, senior membership people so they get a lot of deals and stuff so we go like once every three months or something to see a play. Hmmmm. I should probably go find some money to bring with me . . . .

Not much to report on the tattoo front. Almost done flaking which is awesome, but it's started to itch which is a good but bad thing at the same time. Good because that means it's healing but bad because that means I might be tempted to scratch it. I've also got to make my appointment for touch-ups soon. Hmmm. Gotta do that.

Going to New Jersey next weekend for Beach Jam. It's a Guide thingie.

OMF I'm going to Haliburton!!! HOORAY!!!! It's a scout camp but I'm going with Justin's group and I think it'll be AWESOMENESS. Justin never shuts up about it s I have pretty high expectations but hey. I think it'll be a bit hard though because for a whole week we have to pretend that we're not going out. That'll suck. But as soon as his leader falls asleep anything's fair game so that'll be ok. I've only met his group once and apparently they already have a nickname for me. Tits McGee. Omf I killed myself laughing when Justin told me that. But his brother's in the group and I see Andrew all the time.

But yes. Short entry but my Grandparents are prb going to be here soon and I've got to get ready.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

I thought that she bade me return.

More beautiful than ever doth he return.

Hooray Justin came back yesterday so life is good. He got me a present from Cuba which was so nice of him because I really wasn't expecting anything. He got to my house yesterday and he had this thing behind his back. And he says to me: "I didn't know how to wrap it and I thought you'd enjoy this." So he pull out from behind his back this little white paper bag. I look at it and it's a barf bag from the plane!!! XD OMF I was dying it was so funny. So I opened it and inside was a gorgeous pair of heart earrings. They were on this little square of wood that had designs burned into it and it said Cuba on it in this awesome script. The hearts are kind of divided into three vertical sections. The middle one is white-ish and shiny and the outer ones and the back of the earrings are black. Justin told me that the middle white part is made of shell and the black parts are made from a bull's horn!!! He told me he got them because they matched my prom dress so well. It was so sweet of him. I really wasn't expecting anything. 

But he is a bastard. I've missed him so much and he comes back all tanned and even more beautiful than I remember him being. And he told me about how he missed me and all the times he did, which was so sweet. He said that it actually got to a point where it was almost difficult to have a good time he was missing me so much. Which was so sweet but I hope I didn't ruin his vacation for him. But he has told me so many cool things about Cuba and loads of fun stuff he did while he was there and that's cool. I wish I could go because I love those types of things. The coral and the fishes and squids and stuff. But he says that there were no jellyfish there, which is kind of disappointing. I LOVE jellyfish. I want to be one. I'm serious.

So today Justin and I took the day off. I had some homework that I hadn't finished and I really didn't want to go to class anyways. Plus, that would mean leaving Justin and I don't think I'm quite ready to do that yet. But we went to Photography and developed his Cuba pictures. Then during second we walked over to Trailside for food. OMG they've totally re-done the place. It's ok but it kinda looks like a deli now. I liked it better before but hey, what can you do?? During third we went to Yearbook and we researched 2012 for the entire duration of the period. Because Justin was telling me how, like, the only channel that they got at the hotel that was in English was the history channel and for the whole week all they were talking about was 2012. So, obviously, he got pretty interested in it. And I kinda did too when he was talking about it. So, long story short, 2012 will happen on December 13, 2012 (duh). The sun will be directly in the center of our solar system. Energy flows inwards so all the energy from the sun AND all of the planets will be directed at the sun. And something will happen. However, because Jesus Christ was probably actually born in 4 BC, and when they went from BC to AD they didn't do a year 0, they just went straight to 1, that means that's 5 years we're technically ahead. So 2012 would have already happened in 2007. That's what we discovered in about 90 minutes. Then we went to the Cafe and I heard Justin tell all of his Cuba stories again to everyone there. And then during fourth we went back to Photography and developed another roll of Cuba pictures and made contact sheets for the ones we did during first. And that was our day. I had actually hoped that he would drive in today so that we could fully take the day off and go to my house but he didn't. It;s actually probably a good thing he didn't too because apparently Dad came home after lunch because he had a doctor's appointment and Eirlys came home early too. I wish Justin could have stayed after school but he had to go home. Pity.

Omg the tea I drink has started something sooo funny that they do. On the little paper thing attached to the teabag they've put a fortune thing and then they say "Your tea leaves have been read". But the weird thing is they're actually pretty accurate. Sometimes. The one I got Saturday (the day before Justin came home) said: "Be patient, things will soon return to normal." Which I think is kinda cool. But my one for Friday said: "I can't read you fortune at the moment. A yak is in the way." Sooooo funny. And then I don't exactly remember what my teabag yesterday said but the gist of it was like, "Don't worry, the thing you are looking forward to is coming up on Thursday." And I leave for Boston on Thursday. Weird huh?? I wonder what my next one will say. Please excuse me while I go make a tea . . . . Hmmm. Not the funniest one I've gotten. It says: "Turn over a new leaf. Preferably a tea leaf." Meh. They can't all be winners.

Ok so before I tell you THE GREATEST NEWS (second only to Justin coming home), I must tell you about Saturday. kk so on Saturday I was wherever Fort George is . . . . Niagara-on-the-Lake I think. I had to drive up there with two old men. I don't know them and they don't know me. It was like two hours of crap music. I'll give you an example. One song was called "Jingling Johnny". It's originally from the 1700's. It's at 75 pace mark which is what we usually march to, unless we're at the quick in which case it's 85 or 90. Luckily I had my iPod with me so I played some screamo and some Marilyn Manson to make up for it. So we get there and the sun was blazing and it was about a million degrees. The wind was blowing at like, hurricane speeds. And I'm not even exaggerating that much. I had to walk at about a 75 degree angle to the ground or else I would have blown away. I was also wearing 100% wool uniform. Like, wool pants, wool jacket, crazy thick shirt, crap shoes, uber tall hat that kept blowing away (which totally sucked because I couldn't fidget in ranks :P ) and a strip of leather wrapped around my neck. And we had drill on Saturday too. I was thrilled, let me tell you. 

Anyways, it's time to go home. The sun is still blazing and the wind is a' blowin'. I get in the car with the two old men. The driver, I might add, is a crazy one. We drive for about half an hour when the sky suddenly (and I do mean SUDDENLY) turns pitch black. W e are driving STRAIGHT into a HUGE storm. It starts raining about 5 minutes later. Huge raindrops. The driver turns on his windshield wipers to nuclear-speed. I'm serious. Imagine the fastest you've ever seen windshield wipers go. THE fastest. I can guarantee these went a speed faster. I'M distracted by them, and I'm in the backseat. How does the driver feel?? He speeds up. We are driving into an enormous thunderstorm with distracting wipers flinging raindrops the size of chocolate Easter eggs at 120 km/h. I honestly thought I wasn't going to make it home. So yes that was Saturday.

And now the most greatest news of all!!! I got my tattoo done on Sunday!!! HOORAY!!! I am absolutely in love with it. Which is a good thing, but seriously. I. LOVE. IT. It's Peter Pan and then beside him it says "All children, except for one, grow up." I love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love it!!!! I'm sooooooooooo happy with it I can't even believe it. I'm hoping that my dad will get off his computer soon so I can upload my pictures that my wonderful sister took. I'm hoping to get them up on Facebook within the next day or two. Before I leave for BOSTON!!! 

I'm kinda excited for Boston but I'm also kinda dreading it. Not only do I have couple of solos that will totally and completely FUCK UP the song if I don't play them right, but Justin JUST got home and I'm sooo going to miss him. But I have to go. And I guess it's good that we can be away from each other and not go completely crazy. I dunno how the summer is going to work out when I go to England. I just might go crazy without him. Hmmm. England. That reminds me. We still have to arrange a little rendez-vous between his aunt and mine. Hmmm. I must talk with him when he gets home from his meeting. Ah yes. Rendez-vous and meeting. They remind me of something too. Wow my brain is kinda going all over. Meeting reminds me that I had a brownie meeting tonight and I waited there for half a fucking hour and no one showed up. So I was pretty pissed about that. Rendez-vous reminds me that I have to go and write my own eulogy. In French. It's pretty depressing, let me tell you. So I shall go and do that and I will talk to you later. :)

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought she bade me return.

OMF no way!!!

kk so I am officially a complete idiot. I was reading over my last post (because I do that sometimes when I'm bored) and I noticed that I never even mentioned last Wednesday!!! I can't believe I didn't because last Wednesday was easily the greatest day I've ever had. And I'm serious when I say that.

Anyways, Wednesday. So me and Justin wanted to have one last "fling" before he left. So we've been planning this for a while now. We never really have time to just hang. Like, just the two of us without anyone bothering us. So we planned to take off a whole day. It was totally awesome. But, because our stupid school starts at the crack of dawn, we had to hang around the Photography room for an hour before we could leave. Because obviously we didn't want to show up at my house and have my mother and my sister still there. That would be just a LITTLE embarrassing. So, we hid in the Photography room and then headed over to my place.

When we got there it was awesome. You know the feeling when you know you're doing something wrong and you could possibly get caught while you're doing it?? It was that for the whole day. Awesome. We just hung out for the whole day. Seriously. It was so cool.

I'm not going to go further into it because I'm sure you don't want those pictures in your head. But honestly, we didn't even do that for very long we were having so much fun. And our favourite part of the day wasn't even that. We were like, I dunno, I can't even explain it but it was awesome.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

La La La. Pill. Pill. Pill.

Wow haven't published in ages I'm sorry. I didn't realize it had been left that long.

kk so first things first. Let me just state that SNOW IN APRIL PISSES ME OFF!!!!!! We had a snow day last Monday. What kind of bullshit is that?!?!?! I was all ready to see Justin and then the fucking busses were cancelled. However, the thing that pisses me off the most is that we never found out about it until it was really late. That's usually how it is at my house because my bus comes to get us quite early so by the time we've found out that it's a no bus day, we've already been standing out in a blizzard for 45 minutes. And that really pisses me off. Like, seriously. It really does.

Um yeah so I've been skipping Religion like omg so crazy lately. I didn't go all last week, and then I've gone twice this week. And both the days that I've been have been days where there happens to be a supply. Hee Hee :) I think my religion teacher is kinda pissed because he's lost like thirty students in total out of his two grade 12 religion classes. There's nothing wrong with him, it's just a crap course. It started off pretty cool and all Social Justice-y, but now it's just politics, politics and politics. Which can get a little annoying. Especially if you hate politics. Like me. But yeah. Justin is worse than me on the not going to class front. He's tried for like, two weeks to drop the course. The others switched to Philosophy earlier on in the year or they switched teachers. As if that would make a difference. But Justin full out tried to drop it. He hasn't been to class in three weeks :) I say TRIED because he apparently had this huge hour long argument with his guidance councellor about dropping it and, long stort short, he can't. So now he has to catch up on about three weeks of work.

Except the really funny thing is he's leaving for Cuba today and he'll be gone for a week. Ok, so it's not so funny, it's actually kind of depressing. But in the religion class way it's pretty funny. Did I tell you that he was going to Cuba?? Hmmm. I actually don't think I did. Oh well, now you know. He comes back a week Sunday. Which is AGES away. And then the REALLY crappy thing is he comes back and we have three days to catch up and then I'm leaving for Boston. Which is total crap.

Did I tell you the huge kerfuffle Justin got into about Boston?? (Ahaha. "kerfuffle". It's a funny word) He was all set to go and I think he had already paid one of the payments (I might be wrong about this, I'm not sure) when his parents found out that the day we get back from Boston is the day of Justin's sisters first communion. But the ceremony is in the evening so Justin would have gotten back for like, half of it. His mother was totally fine with it as long as Sarah was, and Sarah WAS fine with it. Because she loves Justin best and he can get her to do anything. And vise-versa. It's the cutest thing ever watching them together. Playing or doing something. Seriously. The. Cutest. Thing. Ever. Wow sorry, getting off topic here. Anyways, Sarah was fine with it and so was his mother. And they were planning on not telling Justin's dad because they knew he would say no without a second thought. This happens a lot so they're all used to it. But somehow Justin's dad found out and there was a huge fight about it. Justin wanted to go obviously and he's only been to one band trip and that was to Florida. And this is his grade 12 year and he's not coming back so he wanted to go even more. There was even a thought of Justin coming with us and then getting a plane ticket home a day early so he could be home. But the thing that really pisses me off is Justin's dad only wanted him home so he could take pictures at Sarah's communion. That's the only reason why he didn't want Justin to go. And I understand that he takes the best pictures and things like that but seriously?? You'll take away his last band trip fro that?? Why can't someone else take a fucking picture. It's not that difficult, believe me I've taken a few in my time. It just pisses me off when his dad does things like that.

And this tattoo thing is pissing me off too, sort of. I'm not rushing it or anything, I just want to get it done soon. I was planning on getting it done this Friday, as in yesterday, but the tattooist guy has his kids this week so he was only in in the morning during school. So I was planing on getting it done on Sunday but he's taking his kids out for the whole weekend. So I THINK I'm going to get it done on Friday or something like that. But I have to call and see and stuff like that. And it's kind of depressing because of the original plan. Did I tell you about that?? I don't think so . . . . Me and Justin planned about three months ago that we were going to get our tattoos done together like, the day after our birthdays or something. But he wasn't quite sure what he wanted to get so he backed out. Which I totally understand. I don't want him getting something he hasn't thought about just because he feels rushed or something. I totally get that. So I don't feel bad at all because he backed out. But I want to get mine and I finally have enough money for it so I've been planning to get it. He keeps telling me to wait for him but I don't want to, really.

Oh, and I'm SUUUUPER sick. My throat muscles have swollen out to like three times their normal size and it hurts to swallow. And cough. And breathe. So I went to the doctor and she gave me these crazy horse pills to eat. THREE TIMES A DAY!!! She said that there's like pus in my throat all around one of my tonsils and that if it gets any worse I have to go to emerg because "That's bad." That's literally what she said to me. No fancy terms that no one can understand or anything. Just "That's bad." So I have to take these pills for 10 days and hopefully I'll get better. I've taken one so far and I can sort of swallow now without it really hurting so that's good.

Oh! My auntie from England is over at my house this weekend so that will be fun :)

And for French I have to write a poem about bacon. Fun. And omg I have to write a love poem too. But here's the hard part. I have to write it with things that I would like to hear said to me. Crap. So that will be interesting to do.

I finished reading "Perks of being a wallflower" yesterday. It's our independent lit book at the moment. It was kind of weird but cool at the same time. We picked our next book on Tuesday. We're doing "Virgin Suicides". It's 5 sisters who all live on one street and then one day all decide to kill themselves. Interesting, eh??

If something else comes up I'll let you know.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Finally.

Sorry. I know it's been AGES since I last updated and I apologise. Really I'm sorry but yes. Ok so, what's happened since my birthday?? Let me see. Um.

I signed myself out for the first time on Monday the 30th. So that was totally wicked. Then later that day I wrote myself my own bus note to go home on Justin's bus and do a photography project with him so that was coolio. Shot the project near a pond and then had some fun in the woods. And by "some fun" I really mean "quite a lot of fun". Really. Excepting the cuts and bruises on my legs and the feeling lost in my feet it was quite enjoyable. Although I would definitely vote in favour of a warmer climate next time.

Then on Tuesday the 31st I decided to just cut the whole day and so I borrowed Justin's cell phone and called in sick. Totally awesome. So we pretty much spent the whole day in the darkroom. And we also had some fun in there too . . . . Dunno if you really want to know this but I'm going to tell you anyways. When I got home I had to scrub my butt for a while to get the whole chemically sensation out. Well, ok, not really a sensation, just a knowledge that it was there, you know?? But good fun anyways.

On April 1st I went to band and omg my face hurt soooooo badly. I hadn't played for almost a week and wow. I really should go to music class more often. But it makes me feel sorry for the brass players. If MY face was hurting that badly what must theirs feel like?? Ouch.

Friday I was supposed to go and see the Fast and the Furious with Justin but the butt wasn't allowed to go at the last minute. So instead I went to Toronto. My aunt who lives in England is visiting and my mother and my sisters were going up to see her, so I went with them.

Then yesterday me and Justin went to Toronto to see We Will Rock You. It was pretty awesome. It was in the year 2300-something and all musical instruments were banned and rock music was dead and everything. There were groups of rebels who were trying to bring back rock. It was soooooo funny and they had live video screens that moved around the stage but they screens interacted with the players and stuff. It was really cool. And then I stayed at his house for a bit after we got back. It was nice. Me and Justin and his sister were wrestling for a while and that's always fun.

And today I wanted to hang out with Justin because even though it sounds like I've been spending all this time with him, I really haven't been. I saw more of him last semester when he was at Co-op. And I've tried telling him that I miss him and that I want to see more of him but I don't think he really gets it. He says that it's better that we learn NOw to be away from each other rather than next year when I'm going to see fuck-all of him. Which I guess makes sense. But I get so depressed when I'm not around him. Really I do. He's all I've got going for me at the moment. But when I'm with him time just flies right by and I can barely enjoy it.

Yesterday when I was at his house we went and laid on his bed for a bit and just . . . . laid there. Those are my most favourite moments with him. When we just lie together. He says the sweetest things then. And he just takes me in his arms and holds me. I love that. He told me some things yesterday . . . . they were the sweetest things I've ever heard. I hope you don't mind but I'm not going to tell you what he said. It wouldn't be right to put them down in type. It would ruin them. I'm sorry, but I want to keep them in my head, so I can imagine his voice saying them. They were so sweet . . . . I was crying they were so sweet . . . . I can't imagine life without him . . . . I can't even describe how I feel about him. And believe me, I've tried. I've tried to get it in writing, to draw it. It never is good enough. I love him.

That's the best I can say. But love doesn't even begin to cover how I feel. It's so much more than love. Love is what you feel for a pet, or a sibling, a friend. Not him. It's like love times infinity. It's not even infinity. Infinity is a sideways 8. An 8 implies that you go round in circles. But I don't. I just keep going in one long unbreakable line. It goes up and down, but never down enough that there's a fight or I give up or I stop loving him. I don't think I ever will. And I don't think he ever will either. He told me he'd never stop. And I believe him. I love him. And the amazing thing is, he loves me back.

That's the thing that amazes me most.

Justin Michael Melnyk loves ME.

You can't imagine how that sentence makes me feel. I wrote it and . . . . my heart exploded.

He loves me.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

I thought that she bade me return.

Rarr

kk so I know I haven't posted since my birthday which was AGES ago but I really have no time to now. So I shall post. Just not now :)

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

I thought that she bade me return.

Hee Hee I'm Responsible XD

So yay today is my birthday and as you may have gathered from the title I am now 18 which means I'm an adult and therefore responsible. Which in all honesty is quite funny.

So yes I haven't updated for ages!! Certainly not for the whole March Break. What I have done so far:

- pretty much no homework. Which isn't really good.

- Went to Toronto yesterday with our friends from Michigan who came up Wednesday.

- Had a two day long Fife Retreat and slept over at the fort.

- Went to see my Grandma for Birthday week.

- STARTED my homework at 9:00 last night and got about 2 minutes of it done.

- Read three and a half books.

- Actually put all of my books on a temporary shelf in my room. I'm surprised they all fit. I didn't think they would.

- Went to visit my aunt and spent the day with her.

- Went to five malls looking for a prom dress.

- FOUND A PROM DRESS IT IS GORGEOUS!!!!!! 

And today I:

- Woke up early and had a shower. Was denied the right to straighten my hairs.

- Started watching Across The Universe. Was denied the right to finish it.

- Briefly talked to Justin before he left to go Go-carting with his cousin.

- Went to Dollarama to buy stuff for Justin and I's party (hmmmm that sounds grammatically incorrect. I wonder what it really should  be . . . . )

- Bought Justin's birthday present and wrapped it.

- Opened presents from my family and from my Grandparents currently at the Grand Canyon

- Talked to my Aunt and her partner in England via webcam and got my present from them. (YAY I'm going to England in the summer to see them!!!)

- Got yelled at. Guess turning 18 changed nothing.

- Cleaned up the house. Ditto.

- Started learning a piece from the Phantom of the Opera Piano book I got for my birthday. I have learned 8 bars so far. I'm proud.

yep. That's been my birthday. I'm planning on going to a movie with Justin later today. We wanted to go see an 18A movie just because we can, so we're going to see I Love You, Man. But I dunno if it's actually going to happen because I dunno when he's getting home from Go-carting and I dunno if his mother's going to let him. So, I should go and do more homework seeing as I have loads to do. I'll let you know when something happens.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

March 11, 2009

-Stayed home sick

-Napped

-Got a call from Justin asking how I was (so sweet)

-Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

-Made instant noodles and ate them

-Wrote a like 7 page paper

-Drank tea

-Ate some lasagna

-Bit my tongue open and now it hurts like hell

-Watched the Little Rascals

-Fell in love with Uh-huh and Buckwheat

-Taught clarinet (so now yay I have money)

yup yup that's pretty much been my day

Auugh.

Auugh. So this particular entry is gonna be quite short compared to my other ones. I just really can't get how I feel into words. Even to describe it to myself. Ever get like that?? Well, it sucks. Basically, I'm being yelled at for EVERYTHING at home. And I mean EVERYTHING. Seriously. My sister's headboard won't fit properly on her bed so my dad has to cut it down and he cuts it wrong: My Fault. The waterbed isn't draining properly and so it took all night to fully drain: My Fault. My mother's pants are on the floor in her room: My Fault. 

It's really getting to the point where I'm getting pissed off. And, of course, I tell Justin these things because who else can a girl rant to if not her boyfriend?? And, thank god for me, he's a natural psychologist or psychiatrist or whatever you want to call it. He's that. Seriously. Bring him ANY problem and he'll come up with some fucking amazing metaphor or something that just tells you what's wrong or what you need to do or what others need to do or whatever you need. He knows. Even if it's some problem that he could never have experienced, he knows. He's literally a genius. It's too bad in order to be a psychiatrist you need like, 4000 degrees. Otherwise he'd be going to school for it. The day someone decided the requirements for psychology is the day the world lost a great psychiatrist. 

But anyways. I tell Justin these things and he talks to his parents. I wish I had that kind of relationship with my parents. Imagine, actually being able to TALK to your parents without them fucking yelling at you every third sentence. Justin's mom says that if this kind of stuff keeps going on, it's only a matter of time until I snap. And before, I was kind of like "Uh-huh. Yep. Ok sure, whatever." But now, I can see it's actually happening to me. I'm crying WAY more often than I was before. I can actually see myself deteriorating. But you know, my parents really aren't helping. It really doesn't make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside to be told what shelter you're going to be brought to if you do one more thing they see as wrong. Shocking, you say?? That can't be true, you say?? Au contraire. I shall be sent to the Choices Youth Shelter on 59 Town line in Orangeville, Ontario, Canada. (519) 942-5970 in case you were wondering. Comforting, isn't it?? 

But Justin won't let that happen. He's so . . . . sweet. Really. The first time I told him that he said to me: Can I call you back in 5 minutes?? I said sure and when he had called me back he had already told his parents that if I ever needed him, EVER, he was to be excused from whatever he was doing so he could come and pick me up and bring me to his house. And his mother is so nice. She invites me over there or sends Justin over whenever she can because she knows I can't stand being in this house alone with my family for much more than 24 hours. I really owe so much to them. And she's always asking how I am. Really. So sweet. 

And I've been this close [-----] to getting kicked out so many times. Threatened, more like it, but anyways, the threats work. But I know one day they really are going to kick me out. And when they pick up the phone to call the shelter you know what I'm going to do?? I'm going to grab the phone right out of their hands and I'm going to call Justin. Then I'm going to walk out of the house and wait for him at the end of my street. I even packed a bag two weeks ago because I thought I was going to be out of the house by the end of the week. 

Auugh. That is literally how I feel. Auugh. Actually, I've written way more than I thought I was going to originally. This blogging stuff is really good for writing it all down. I could keep on writing for like, two hours but I should probably get off now. If anything happens, I'll let you know.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

The Ditch

yes so this is the crucial time between success and failure. I know that I haven't really been updating recently, and I apologize for that. And I know that if I don't really get into this updating thing, I'll get bored of it and stop. And the whole point of starting this thing was to keep it going, so I know I can't stop now. I must prevail.

Yes. The keyboard I'm using is incredibly fucked and won't function properly. Especially with the CAPS LOCK key, which is what I use for a capital. I don't do the whole shift thing. It doen't work for me. Dunno why, but it doesn't. Yes, so for all of my sentences in which I need a capital, the stupid key gets stuck and doesn't register the first time I hit it, so I get sentences that end up looking like this: hEY IT'S ME AND OMG i'M REALLY PISSED OFF AT THE STUPID KEYBOARD. Yup yup. That's my life.

Anyways, me and Justin have FINALLY worked out when our party's going to be. I don't remember if I mentioned that we're having a combined party. Actually, now that I think of it, I think I did. Anyways. Its on the 21st of March so that should be cool. I'll be 18 by then so woot for me. We're going kosmic bowling and doing other such coolio things. We've decided to make a video invitation and I still have to finish editing that.

Good news!!! The Martin's are coming over for some of the March Break so that will be AWESOMENESS. I haven't seen Jonathan in like, 5 or 6 months. Hmmmmm. That reminds me (and this will make NO sense to you but anyways . . . . ), I have to get him and ant farm . . . . I think I'll explain that one next time.

You know, I really don't know why I haven't updated in like 15 days. I really don't have an excuse. Well, my mother does make sure that cleaning the fucking house takes up about 85% of my life. Anyways.

On to the next subject!!! Wow, I really don't do transitional things do I?? But anyways, MORE good news!!! Mallory is going to be coming to Hall on Tuesdays from now on and she's going to be giving be like, 20 minute lesson things every week. For free!!! But really just like tone and technique and such. But I really do need that sort of thing anyways so I guess it's worth it.

Crap. Bell rang. I'll talk to you later then. :)

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Wow. Apologies.

Holy crap haven't updated in AEONS. 

kk so crazy week. So much homework I'm behind already. I'm sooooooo busy I can't even explain it but I'll give you an example. It's 9:00 and I haven't done ANY homework yet. I have a French book I have to read and a paper to write on it by tomorrow. Prob not going to happen until Monday so late on that one. I haven't done my Religion and I've already got a zero on one of these weekly papers. Also not going to be done until Monday. I have a Music study to learn but that's really not that high on my list of things to do.

I spend like 3 hours on the phone with Justin and this crazy dude at the bowling place planning our Birthday party - - - - I don't remember if I told you or not. Ever since me and Justin found out that our birthdays are two days apart (i.e. three years ago) we've been planning to have a combined birthday party. And now that we're going out, turning 18, and graduating, the time seemed ripe. So yes. That's kind of crazy. And of course, my sister and her friend have their birthday on the SAME day so they want a combined birthday party too, and of course we both want the same day. But I digress.

Sorry I haven't the time to write more, but I really should try to get SOME homework done. I'll talk later.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Report

Hello. I pretty much just got my report card for semester one and I thought it would be fitting to tell you, the internet (and Leah of course) my results. And they are . . . . kinda poo. I got a 77 in Graphic Design, which is not too shabby. I got 80 in Marketing, which when compared to the other marks in that class shows that I'm a fucking rocket scientist, is also not too shabby. I got an 85 in English which is awesomeness, but i got 68 in Photography which is totally bum. I had an 83 at midterm. My mother is going to flip when she sees it. Which sucks. I think I might have told you already that Cicco closed the darkrooma a day earlier than he'd originally told us so It's not really my fault, but yes. My average is 77.5, photography sooooo brought me down for that one. But yes, end of status.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,
I thought that she bade me return.

London Bridge is WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

 So, back to school again. Sorry I haven't written in a while but, you know, the whole starting school thingie. I believe I've already gone through my courses. Yes, I def have.

Yesterday Justin took his Figure Photography assignment with me and Liv. Now THAT was an interesting experience. Lying in my underwear (literally, that was all I was wearing) with my friend holding a burning light to my skin and my boyfriend holding a camera to my boobs. Yes, interesting is definitely the word. I can't wait to see how they turn out. Wish I could see Cicco's reaction when he sees them. Most students in photography get people to like, show their arms and legs or a guy takes off his shirt to show muscles and stuff. The people who like to push teachers to their limits will ask a girl to take off her shirt but usually she's wearing like her bathing suit of something. But not Justin. No, not a loser like him. Push it as far as it cn possibly go and then push it further. He's so obsessed with Photography. It's kind of depressing as I think I've said before. He loves it so much it's like I can see into his mind with his pictures. He's so concentrated. You should have seen him at the shoot. He never faltered and he was so . . . . excited. You could clearly see that it was what he loved. It almost makes me feel like I'm second best, like I'm not as important.

Which, I know, is a stupid thing to think, but hey, that's what blogs are for, right?? I really like this blogging thing. I think I'm getting better at it too. There's sometimes I'm writing and I feel my fingers typing what is in my brain. Ok, that sounded weird. But let me explain. The things that you think, stay inside your brain and sort of mull around in there before you even consider them as a thought. But I feel these things being typed and I see them appearing on the screen before my brain has really even registered them. As my brain is producing a thought, it is automatically transferred to the keys. Which is weird. Usually when you write ANYTHING, you think about it before you write it. But I don't think that I've used the Delete key in a few weeks. Except to correct like, spelling blunders or things like that. But seriously, when I'm writing, almost everything I'm thinking ends up on the screen. I say almost because I keep the thoughts like: "Hmmm I wonder what Justin is doing?" or "OMG I wish my mother would leave me alone" in my head because I'm sure you don't need that right now.

Wow. I'm feeling a little off today. But it feels kind of like I'm a little drunk. I'll explain. I gave blood on Wednesday. You know if you've been sitting or lying down for a long time and then you stand up too quickly and you get a head rush?? Well, I get that too, but because of my lack of a pint of blood, when I get that I kinda get fucked up. And it sticks around for longer than perhaps it should. Then, in French class, I started getting a killer headache. Like, it was getting to the point where the lights were bright enough to hurt and I was seriously considering asking Melanson if I could go to my locker to get my sunglasses. I then remembered that I had Tylenol in my bag. Now, when I get a headache that bad, I usually take three extra strengths. So that's what I did. However, I don't think that was a smart thing to do because of the less blood factor. Because everything is slightly blurry and my head still hurts but I'm kinda sway-ie and drunkeny. Is this what it feels like to be high?? I doubt it. But yes. Nick says that the Tylenol is probably more concentrated in my bloodstream now because there's less of it and so I just like, OD'd on Tylenol. Which has happened before. Not to me, but Gio did. So, if the title of my blog any indication to you how I feel right now . . . . yes. I've also had London Bridge stuck in my head since 10:30 which is about when I took the Tylenol. And it's 12:10 now so thats like almost two hours of London Bridge. Surprisingly it's not annoying. Maybe it's because I'm under the influence.

Oh yes, just a short not cause I have to leave soon. Mother is taking me and Ceriwden early out of school and then we're going to see Grandma to Winterfest which we do ever year. More later.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return

Jerry Springer - The Opera

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh dear, still laughing my butt off.

kk So Cicco organized a wee adventure to UofT to see a play. I think I've mentioned it before. Neways, it was Jerry Springer - The Opera. Sooooooooo funny but DEFINITELY not for minors. Or for people who can't stand extreme swearing and . . . . how did they put it?? Ah yes, "adult situations". Laughing my ass off. Greatest show I've ever seen. And that includes when I saw Colm Wilkinson in Les Miserables. Don't think I'm telling the truth?? You go see a play in which swearing is operatically sung, including that well known classic: "What the fuck?? What the fuck?? What the fucking fucking fuck??". And who can forget the "Getting ass-fucked with barbed wire" song?? Wow, the next time you see Jesus get dick-slapped in the face and the KKK doing choreography, THEN come and we'll talk. 

It's even more funny because the only people in "our group" (and by that I mean the Bandies) that went was me and Justin. So me and Justin are walking down hallways or sitting in the cafe singing "I'VE BEEN SEEING SOMEONE ELSE!!!!!!!!!", and "Faaaaaaaaaaa--Faaaaaaaaaaaa--Faaaaa--Faaaa--FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!" And no one gets it and they just look at us like we're insane. Whoooo. So funny my abs are hurting. Seriously. Hurting. Good work out though.

Luka came to visit today which was AWESOMENESS!!!!!!! Think we pissed off Lloyd in class today though, I'm so horrible when Luka's around. Not my fault, he influences me. XD

Oh yes, today was the first day of semester two, which looks promising so far. I've got Music with Lloyd first, then I have French with Melanson, which will be interesting. Third I have "Religion" with Hynan. I put religion in quotations because according to the course outline sheet, and the talk that our class had today, this isn't really a religion course, which is good. Because unless it's Buddhism, I honestly (and I'm sorry) couldn't give a shit. It's really a "Social Justice" class. Which should be fun. Especially since there's 7 people in the class. And finally I have Independant Lit with Reist fourth. In which class I have Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays off. So that'll be cool. Hmmmm. Perhaps I could persuade Justin to skip English one day and come to my house . . . . 

So yes. I'm just chillin', watching Dave Lehre movies to boost my morale. If you've never heard of him before (shame on you, he's awesome) click on his name to link you to youtube and check out some videos. I strongly suggest Myspace: the movie, Disease Island, or Things I've learned. He is Oh So Hilarious it makes me laugh :)

Well, I'm excited to get back to my movie, so I'll talk to you later.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return

Quickie

Yes so this one is gonna be a short burst of CELEBRATION EXAMS ARE DONE!!!!!

Hmmm. I'm going to Justin's tomorrow and then we're going to UofT with Cicco to see a play. Must decide what to wear.

I TOLD you it'd be short.

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

Insomnia much??

I have these once in a while. Those days where no matter how hard you stare at the inside layer of your eyelids, you just can't get to sleep. I was doing some meditating beforehand; haven't done it in ages. It was omg crazy awesome. Mostly thinking of Justin. It's a pity I couldn't get to sleep. I would have had some nice dreams.

So yes. Omg freezing in my house. I've been wearing a coat inside all of . . . . yesterday I guess. :) And so far, all of today. Watched some movies and then watched movies that were on tv. I hate commercials they piss me off.

Oh yes. So I never got a chance to do my Photography final which sucks bum. And I have to write the essay for Cicco . . . . today. And of course, my final is worth like, 20% of my final mark. Hooray for me yes??

Brrrrr. Cold. Maybe I'll curl up in bed with my book and wait for everyone to wake up. Talk to you later :)

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.

To weep is to make less the depth of grief.

Ok so today was my first exam. Easy peasy it was.

Now the things that have gone . . . . I dunno what word to put. YOU probably won't think they're so horrible, but I'm under a lot of stress lately. Being controlled will do that to you . . . . today:

-I almost slept in this morning

-Had to stand forever in the freezing cold

-Called Justin when I got home but he was out with a friend

-Justin STILL isn't home and he said we'd hang out today

-I won't see Justin until Friday

-Just got the worst haircut of the century. I look like Brendan Frasier.

-Now my Grad Photo (if or when THAT ever decides to happen), the picture I'm (maybe??) going to cherish for my whole life because I graduated from High School, is going to look like omg absolute crap. I can't even think of words to describe how horrifying it will be to me. For the rest of my life. 

-I'm getting sick

-There's probably more but I can't really think right now.

I think I'm going to do something horrible to my mother. I think, once I'm 18, I'll go get my eyebrow pierced. Either that or the nose. Hmmmm. I think the eyebrow one is just putting my toe over the line. Perhaps the nose is a little too far for the moment. I'll wait until I'm sure where I'm sleeping at night until I do that one.

At least Ceridwen is awesome when others are in trouble. I can't even explain it. She just does what needs doing. While I was still getting my hair "cut" she ran upstairs and thought up a million different ways to improve my hair without making it shorter. Now, don't get me wrong, I love having short hair. And it's a good thing too, because I can actually pull it off. But if my hair was any shorter I would have a mohawk. 

So sweetly she bade me adieu,

     I thought that she bade me return.